everything is fine now. it is the problem with me being to sensitive and think things too complicated.
everytime something bad happen, it is always my fault. that's what i feel. it seems like whatever things that ppl do and for the same thing i do, the outcome is different. if i did that, i will be my fault and they are not at fault. WTH. YOU know what i mean. i dunno why at this point of moment, i feel that my life is so fucked up for the whole 21 years. sick of life. i'm tired of living. i always wish that i'm better off dead. the best ending for everyone and myself. human live to suffer. i used to think that if i think more optimistic and be more happy and habour more hope in life, things will be better and life will be better. it seems like it's all bullshit.
OK! i dunno what am i talking about. i'm out of my mind. Ciao!
pen down at 10:26 PM