i need some guidance. god please show me the path to go.

i wish tomorrow will nv come.

a new phase in life.

pen down at 10:42 PM

significant incident in life makes one changed

short temper
sensitive
insecure
is what i am now

no longer independent
no longer able to control myself

i hate these bloody changes in me
damn it

i need tender, loving, care, attention
can anyone give me those for 24/7?

pen down at 9:40 PM

on 17th Sept 08, you left. it's already been 2 months and i stil cant get over you. i wish i could see you again. so much that i hope with tears at nights. with all those missing of you, make some of my nights insomia.

i love you, grandma.

Rest in Peace.

pen down at 10:56 PM

it's the time in life to learn.
learn to '看开' in all aspects of life.

pen down at 9:38 PM

9月17日

我接到了堂哥的电话.
我哭了.
无法接受这个打击.
顿时间,我不想去医院,我不想面对这个残酷的事实.
最终我还是去了.

在医院的大堂遇见了表妹,便和她一起上去病房.
出了电梯,我开始放慢脚步走在表妹后面.
我开始有逃避的心态.
再慢的脚步还是走到了病房.
我哭了.
泣不吭声.

9月18日至9月21日

惭愧的我一直逃避.
惭愧的我一直忍着不哭.

9月22日至9月26日

我还是面对不了现实.
再难受,再伤心,我都忍着泪.

9月27日

无法再控制我的眼泪.
我最终还是崩溃了.
哭着写了之前词条.

那晚,我躺在床上哭地不停.
有个很奇怪又特殊的感觉.
我很想哭,却有个莫名的力量在安抚我.
我似乎感觉到你的存在.
是你在身旁安抚着我吗?

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到现在,我还放不下你,还是接受不了你离开的事实.
遗憾和惭愧还存在我心里.
每次都怪自己为何自己那么没度量,不懂得珍惜你.

阿嬷,我想你.

pen down at 7:37 PM